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Are you ready to go down the rabbit hole? To visit a surreal world, where black is white and white is carrots?

A friend, Metacognician in Shanghai, describes the situation as follows: “Life is more absurd than movies. I've gone down the rabbit hole too, when it just becomes more and more strange and you wonder how that all is supposed to make sense.” I asked him if I should just embrace it. He answered, “Why should you ... change the universe?”

It started with a psychotic named Jim Kiraly who resides, we think, at 6329 Twinberry Circle, Avila Beach, California.

Jim Kiraly is a respected citizen. A churchgoer. A Vice President of Transamerica Corporation. And a violent abuser who tried to use an emergency anti-violence measure, one intended to protect battered women, to stop his victim in a wheelchair from writing a book.

Concise enough? :)

For attorneys: Jim Kiraly filed for CLETS against his son and victim, who lived 200 miles away, did not own a car, and was in a wheelchair. His son and victim was not asked to end communications. Jim had no (zero) specific and relevant allegations that were not perjury. But he turned down repeated offers of no-contact and a signed stipulation that gave him everything but CLETS. He insisted on CLETS if his victim ever once “discussed” him with third parties.

In the end, Jim Kiraly signed an agreement far weaker than the ones he'd been offered.

A review of Court paperwork and other materials will tend to confirm that Jim and other parties, including attorneys on all sides, committed multiple felonies, crimes, and faux pas. :P

The word “abuser” is stated here publicly and without equivocation. A formal offer is hereby made to reaffirm the word in writing and under oath. Attorneys will understand the significance of the point. In short, there is little terror of a threatened defamation suit on this side. Actually, we feel that such a suit will fit nicely up Jim Kiraly's abuser ass.

Jim has one son, Ken Kiraly, who invented the Amazon Kindle and is one of the leads at Amazon's secret Lab126. Another son, Tom Kiraly is one of the leads, a Vice President-CFO type, at medical insurance firms, including one of the largest, Humana Corporation.

These people and some of the biggest names in Silicon Valley legal circles have committed or are involved in multiple crimes.

For the next decade or two, we're going to explore the crimes that these people committed, the motivations and the denial involved, the background and histories that led each person to make the choices that they did, and ways to build upon what happened and move towards positive societal goals.

There's plenty to go over. These people committed or were involved in: Spousal abuse, child abuse, DDOS (a highly prosecutable violation of CFAA), extortion, perjury, conspiracy to commit perjury (a possible felony), false police reports, conspiracy to file false police reports (a possible felony), unlawful threats, barratry, defamation, malpractice, civil harassment, criminal harassment, abuse of process, and violations of SCCBA Professional Standards.

The point was to force Jim's oldest son and victim, me, to sign a gag order. I was in a wheelchair. I'd never made a single inappropriate threat against my abuser. I wasn't even asked to not to call anybody. But Jim threatened to put me in a violence database unless I agreed never to write about him.

I won the right to write, but I lost my home of 25 years, most of my possessions, my chances for retirement, everything. Everything but a realization.

I can make a difference. I can conduct research for legitimate and reasonable purposes, document what happened, and analyze the choices of the people involved:

Maggie told me that she didn't know what she could say to me about what happened. However, we have decades to work it out. It will be productive. I'd like to direct the attention of attorneys and other parties to the:

Legitimate and Reasonable Purposes List

Questions or comments are welcome. For technical notes and disclaimers, click here.

Free Downloads

The current free ebook is located at this link:

For details about the ebook, click here.

The point? “The story is already out there, idiots. Keep it up and I'll demonstrate how something known as decentralized distribution works.”


Sunday 2012-12-16 — Chaos and Order Explanation

121216. Chaos is an IRC friend who seems to be a true MPD or somebody roleplaying that he is one. Note: This is not his nick. Actually, he's used dozens of different nicks over the past few months.

Chaos is the person who I directed the poem OldCoder Explains Himself to in Fall 2012. At the same time, he's probably a second person who gave me the first draft of the Watercodia story and, I believe, a third person who gave me artwork and a brief positive essay about me.

It should be mentioned that each of these three people also gave me a virtual world that demonstrated patience and skill.

His other identities produce artwork as well. Somebody I believe may be the same person told me he did the banner at this link. Note: The image is distributed under this license: CC BY-NC-SA 3.0 Unported.

He also seems quite skilled at some technical issues. So skilled that Metacognician and I speculated, though not seriously, that he might be an AI.

In short, Chaos is both creative and skilled, and has tried to be a friend to me.

To clarify the origin of the Watercodia story, I wrote much of the story but it follows Chaos's draft. The characters are largely his and three of them represent his different selves. The character of Mr. Shark represents his best-known identity.

As a note to HedgeMage, Myrddin, and Kappelin, the Mr. Shark identity is the one that your friends would know about.

There is some irony in the Chaos situation. If I remember correctly, after 2008, Grace Kiraly started to believe that I was MPD because my creative side returned that year decades after events that she'd prefer not to remember. But my two sides are prosaic though distinct at times: Speech and Writing.

I was afraid of Chaos at the time of the OldCoder Explains Himself incident. But I learned subsequently what he was; somebody who'd created multiple identities, including identities that were friends of mine. No longer afraid after that.

During the three days that started on Friday 121214, Chaos got out of hand. Some of the people reading this know what I'm referring to. On Sunday 121216 I gave up on trying to deal with the situation myself. I turned things over to three people that I selected.

My feeling was that the matter should be handled carefully and I tried to make this clear.


Wednesday 2012-12-19 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121219. Chaos has a number of creative and interesting identities. Whatever they are in the real world, some of these people are real enough enough for IRC purposes.

Additionally, one of them told me a while back that their feelings are real sometimes. If they have feelings of their own, they are real.

I tried to explain to Order recently that I'd noticed his growing depression. An imaginary cat that was depressed :-) I didn't want him to disappear.

So many people have disappeared over the years. I don't think I want these colorful and sometimes fun characters to die.


Thursday 2012-12-20 — I See IRC: Exiting Channels

121220. I reduced my involvement with a couple of my IRC channels recently. I was too tired to continue full-time.

Here's some excerpts from a related discussion with Deep Market. I've wondered if he might be one of the Chaos alters. However, at this point, it doesn't matter.

<OldCoder> How are you?
<OldCoder> I am glad to see you.
<DeepMarket> Fine :-) Thank you! And you? Everything all right? You were missed here

<OldCoder> The Chaos issue is not simple
<OldCoder> He is a friend
<OldCoder> He is about 12 friends
<DeepMarket> Hard to tell. There are some people who behave different enough not to be Chaos. Besides... I don't know exactly who he is. If he is that many people maybe he doesn't know himself

<OldCoder> Thank you for saying I was missed. But, you know, some of those who said this... were simply more avatars of the same person :-)

<DeepMarket> I'm sure most people will miss you
<OldCoder> It is not likely. I am simply being realistic. I wish to PM some. My support of the project will continue.


Tuesday 2012-12-18 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121218. When I returned home from San Jose, I found that Chaos had been an issue again in IRC.

A few observers have suggested that one person in particular, Jerome, might be Chaos. I believe the suggestion is off the mark. Jerome is intelligent, but if what he's told me is true, he's had less experience dealing with people than Chaos seems to have had.

But tonight Chaos sent a photo of Jerome to a channel op. I'm told the context was confusing but it didn't seem to be a threatening gesture. It was more of a challenge to solve a puzzle.

Jerome reads this blog sometimes. I'm mentioning the incident because I'd like Jerome to know about the photo and to comment if he knows what it's about.


Sunday 2012-12-16 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121216. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

Order is my name for somebody in IRC that Chaos hates with a passion. Naturally, Chaos and Order are the same person. Here's a conversation that I had with Order on Sunday.

<Order> There was a question asked of me?
<OldCoder> No
<OldCoder> My remark was related to...
<OldCoder> I think a couple of attempts just to greet you; but also to you over the past month or two. I saw the change and it concerned me.
<OldCoder> I figured you would disappear
<OldCoder> Did what I could to stop it


Sunday 2012-12-16 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121216. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

A couple of us think that Ranger may be one of Chaos's identities. This isn't proven but after tonight it seems possible. Here's part of a conversation that I had with Ranger earlier. Edited for length.

To complicate things further, there are two Rangers, one of whom denies that he is the other.

<Ranger1> I am real!!!
<OldCoder> We will help if we can
<OldCoder> Are you?
<OldCoder> I am sorry. I should have approached this differently.
<OldCoder> But after a dozen of you, I am tired

<Ranger1> You think im another identity?
<OldCoder> We will discuss it another time
<OldCoder> I think you believe you exist
<OldCoder> I apologize
<OldCoder> This was the wrong approach

<Ranger1> Well i have many aliases. Ranger, Akanari Hanari...
<OldCoder> The offer to help is sincere
<OldCoder> Uh huh
<OldCoder> Do these aliases...
<OldCoder> have different feelings?
<OldCoder> I got to go for now
* OldCoder tips his hat
<Ranger1> No they dont take over my body and my soul etc
* Ranger1 has quit (Client Quit)

<Ranger2> Ok continue
<Ranger2> They do have different feelings
<OldCoder> Oh?
<OldCoder> But you are aware
<OldCoder> that you are you?

<Ranger2> Akanari Hanari is quiet like a ninja or just a japanese boy
<OldCoder> All right
<Ranger2> Yes
<OldCoder> I see

<OldCoder> I suspect you of being one of them without realizing it
<Ranger2> My aliases are like mood-packs
<OldCoder> Yes
<OldCoder> Is it possible
<OldCoder> that you yourself are a mood pack and you do not realize it?
<Ranger2> Lol well yeah, sometimes i do flip really east

<OldCoder> I mean...
<OldCoder> Is it possible that you are no more or less real than the Japanese boy?
<OldCoder> Do not be irritated
<OldCoder> I am simply asking
<OldCoder> Does the Japanese boy know
<OldCoder> That he is you?
<Ranger2> Bye g2g
* Ranger2 has quit (Client Quit)

<OldCoder> How long were you in class?
<Ranger1> 45 minutes but the teacher was late
<OldCoder> Ranger1 you have been talking to me
<OldCoder> for half an hour without a break
<Ranger1> YES
<Ranger1> Kinda...
<OldCoder> Was there a class?
<Ranger1> Wait no i was on a break
<Ranger1> Yes
<Ranger1> I said bye g2g
<OldCoder> Yes
<OldCoder> Then you came right back
<OldCoder> A few seconds later
<Ranger1> No i didnt
<Ranger1> It warmt me
<Ranger1> No he didnt
<OldCoder> Relax...
<OldCoder> I was not sure until now
<Ranger1> Check the ip
<OldCoder> Listen... Your backup name came a few seconds later
<OldCoder> All right
<Ranger1> It wasnt me
<Ranger1> Someone must have nicklamed me
<OldCoder> And talked
<OldCoder> about your aliases
<OldCoder> Is there a Japanese boy?
<Ranger1> Wait g2g, russian class
<Ranger1> No, its just my personality switches
<Ranger1> Bye
* Ranger1 has quit (Client Quit)

<Ranger1> well its still me, my mood just changes sometimes...
<OldCoder> I see
<OldCoder> How much does it change?
<Ranger1> like sometimes when i wake up, i just feel like i want to kiss somebody...
<OldCoder> And other times?
<Ranger1> sometimes a mood takes over... like sadness...

<OldCoder> How far does the mood go?
<Ranger1> well sometimes i feel like the whole world is on my side
<Ranger1> not much...
<Ranger1> the sadness isnt that much...
<OldCoder> So it does not truly take over?
<Ranger1> no
<OldCoder> All right

<Ranger1> sometimes i just cant, lets say, stop crying...
<OldCoder> That happens
<Ranger1> sometimes i cant stop laughing :D
<Ranger1> yeah :D
<OldCoder> But during the moods, are you still yourself?
<Ranger1> yeah :D
<OldCoder> O.K.


Friday 2012-12-14 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121214. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

Somebody has asked me if I am Chaos or Order. The answer is no. Based on research done by Jerome, and what Chaos and Order have told me, the origin of Chaos is fairly clear. He seems to be another aspect of Order.

Note the spelling errors here that may be artificial. They're reminiscent of errors on the clock that Jacob gave me as a gift. I don't know if Jacob is Chaos or not. It's an odd possibility.

<OldCoder> ********* was not Order initially
<OldCoder> But he has assumed that role
<Chaos> Hmmm
<Chaos> Oldcoder have u seen ****** picture??
<OldCoder> I have
<Chaos> From 1 to 10 how attrative do YOU think she is

<Chaos> Yeah I thought so
<OldCoder> I was called away
<OldCoder> I have about 5 conversations at times
<OldCoder> And what is attractive?
<OldCoder> You know it is not about appearance

<OldCoder> I am exhausted
<OldCoder> In real life
<OldCoder> You were created
<OldCoder> This summer
<OldCoder> To serve a purpose
<OldCoder> Decide what the purpose is

<Chaos> K let me rephrase that..... from 1 to 10 how fisically attrative is she
<OldCoder> See the above
<OldCoder> Why do you exist?
<OldCoder> That is not questioning
<OldCoder> Your right to exist
<OldCoder> But where will you go from here?

<Chaos> To the bathroom
<OldCoder> Go to the bathroom then
<Chaos> Now answer
<OldCoder> Time is the currency we spend that cannot be replenished
<OldCoder> I have spent my time today on this
<OldCoder> I should not have done so. And your own time is not unlimited.
<Chaos> I know but I'm doing something beside this so it doesn't matter
<Chaos> So respond

<OldCoder> You miss the point
<OldCoder> Why do you exist?
<OldCoder> You know why you were created

<Chaos> Dude common just respond
<OldCoder> See above: Wasted time
<OldCoder> You want me to play that kind of game...
<Chaos> Its a question I wanted to find out
<OldCoder> I don't have the kind of time that you wish me to spend.

<OldCoder> If people treat you unfairly
<OldCoder> Then respond
<OldCoder> Nothing that happened tonight was called for
<OldCoder> Are you an automaton?
<OldCoder> The answer is no

<OldCoder> Do you intend to embrace Chaos as thoroughly as ********* embraced Order?
<OldCoder> You will be as silly in the end as his bot
<OldCoder> Become a person
<OldCoder> Full fledged
<OldCoder> With some depth
<OldCoder> I made the transition
<OldCoder> Do you think...

<Chaos> Wth are u talking about lol
<OldCoder> I am not the same?

<OldCoder> Do you not know?
<OldCoder> Answer me truly
<OldCoder> I have become real
<OldCoder> You can do the same

<OldCoder> I am exhausted. And I have miles to go before I sleep. I am going for a walk now.
<OldCoder> I want your permission BTW...
<OldCoder> to tell your full story. After I tell my own.
<OldCoder> That is going to take some time.

<OldCoder> If you don't know who and what you are
<OldCoder> That is going to complicate things
* OldCoder is going for a walk
<Chaos> Kk
<OldCoder> C U
<OldCoder> D:
<Chaos> Later


Thursday 2012-12-13 — I See IRC: Chaos and Order

121213. This is part of the story of Chaos and Order; two IRC figures who are quite interesting. I believe Chaos may be a true MPD.

<Atanea> it's his problem
<Atanea> that unnatural mother ******
<Atanea> already talked with *****
<OldCoder> I know
<Atanea> what?

<OldCoder> Request is to look for a way to work things out
<OldCoder> There is more to the story
<OldCoder> And the story is not for today
<OldCoder> Life is odd isn't it?
<Atanea> yea.
<OldCoder> We see things from so many different perspectives
<Atanea> worst than that.

<OldCoder> There are things you do not know. Or it is possible that you do know. I will not elaborate on that.
<OldCoder> He is Chaos seeking Order. As Order seeks Chaos.
<OldCoder> They must find a balance
<OldCoder> I will help if I can
<OldCoder> The balance is not stasis
<OldCoder> Stasis is pure Order. Victory over Chaos. It is also the end of change and possibility.
<OldCoder> There is another way
<OldCoder> Let him find it